Terima kasih Ayah!

Di pagi Jumaat yang diberkahi, hari dimana Nabi Adam A.S diciptakan, di mana Jumaat digelar Saiyidul Ayyam - penghulu segala hari, marilah kita bersujud syukur, memanjat setinggi-tinggi kesyukuran kepada Allah di atas segala nikmat nya. Bukan hanya kerana sepinggan sarapan pagi tetapi kerana segala nikmat - nikmat sekecil-kecilnya seperti dibangunkan oleh Allah pada pagi ini sehingga nikmat sebesar-besar nikmat iaitu Iman dan Islam, Alhamdulillah ya Rabb, Alhamdulillah.. 


Dan sememangnya sedikit sekali di antara hamba-hambaKu yang bersyukur. 34:13.


Ucaplah syukur, bertahmid memuji nya sedangkan rumput yang kita pijak dan batu yang dilanggar yang kita marahi, mereka tidak putus-putus bertahmid memuji Allah. Tidak malukah kita? Masukkanlah diri kita diantara hambaNya yang sedikit yang mengucapkan syukur kepada Allah, Alhamdulillah..


Di pagi penuh barakah ini, Allah layangkan ingatan ke Malaysia, pada seseorang yang sangat dekat di hati dan tentunya di dalam doa - seorang dan hanya seorang Ayah. Syukurnya diri ini pada Allah memberikan kami  Ayah yang sangat penyayang dan penyabar. Alhamdulillah.. 

Kami di Christchurch April 2012

Umar Al-Khattab pernah berkata, tanggungjawab seorang Ayah ialah memilih ibu yang baik untuk anak-anaknya, memberikan nama yang baik serta mengajar membaca Al-Quran kepada anak-anak. 


Ayah,


Terima kasih Ayah, memilih kepada kami 3 orang ibu yang baik mereka tidak terkata, Emak Siti Hajar, Mama Normah dan Umi Che Kamilah.
Terima kasih Ayah, memberi namaku Fairuz - cahaya permata hijau, Hidayah - petunjuk, Aishah - nama Isteri Nabi s.a.w, Maisarah - kegembiraan, Iqbal - kejayaan, Zahirah - semangat, Adibah - sopan santun dan Ashraf - luhur.
Terima kasih Ayah, berusaha melengkapkan pendidikan kami dari tadika hingga ke universiti.


Terima kasih untuk ketiga-tiga perkara, lengkaplah tanggungjawab Ayah kepada kami dalam kepayahan dan tentunya diiring dengan sejuta satu pengorbanan. Dan,

Terima kasih Ayah, membawa rezeki yang halal untuk kami dari dulu hingga kini.
Terima kasih Ayah, mengajar kami mengucapkan 'I love you' sesama adik-beradik dan saudara-mara tanda penghargaan dan menunjukkan kasih sayang pada mereka sebelum terlambat.
Terima kasih Ayah, mengingatkan kami bahawa semua yang diberi adalah pinjaman semata-mata dari Allah.
Terima kasih Ayah, mengajar kami motto hidup kita: 'hidup adalah untuk orang lain', jadi kami lebih memberi dari menerima.
Terima kasih Ayah, tidak putus-putus menjaga kebajikkan kami dari segi kesihatan dan keperluan yang lain.
Terima kasih Ayah, mencorakkan kami dengan acuan Islam, berasa ihsan dengan manusia.


Dari benih yang baik, terbinalah generasi yang baik, Alhamdulillah.. Siapa lah kami tanpa Ayah. Terima kasih Ayah! :')

Terbaca buku SaifulIslam - Bercinta Sampai ke Syurga minggu lepas memberi tamparan hebat di mana beliau berkata:

Anak-anak beruntung memilik Ibu dan Ayah tetapi 

Ibu dan Ayah belum tentu beruntung memiliki anak-anak. 

Ya Allah, jadikanlah kami aset kepada Mak Ayah Mama Umi dan seluruh keluarga kami menuju syurga kelak, ameen! Jauhkanlah kami dari derhaka kepada mereka, sungguh cinta mereka datang tanpa syarat, tetapi kami? Na'uzubillahi min zaliq.

Dan orang-orang yang beriman yang diturut oleh zuriat keturunannya dengan keadaan beriman, Kami hubungkan (himpunkan) zuriat keturunannya itu dengan mereka (di dalam Syurga); dan Kami (dengan itu) tidak mengurangi sedikitpun dari pahala amal-amal mereka; tiap-tiap seorang manusia terikat dengan amal yang dikerjakannya. At-Tur:21.

Moga Allah berikan kegembiraan yang berpanjangan pada Ayah - di dunia dan akhirat. Eyush sayang Ayah!

I think, I just knew him.

I cherish his love to the family & friends.
I admire his generosity.
I enjoy listening to his beautiful advices.
I like his speech, speaks, words & talks.
I appreciate his patience and hard works.
I adore his passion towards his full-time job.
I treasure his unique smile.
I admire the way he looks at the elders & children and how he welcomes their attendance.

Above all the feelings I have for him;

I just realized that, I do love him a lot. In fact in my nearly 23 years of life-time, this is our first photo together, just the two of us;

Isn't it adorable? ;)

We don't have anything in common. We never travel together and have a long chit chat. I remember he once said to his friend;

"Dalam ramai-ramai anak, si Fairuz ni la paling tak manja"

Hehe. It is true indeed. I couldn't hug him spontaneously like what my other siblings always did, it's always him who starts the conversation, it's always him who starts hugging me. And then I would excitedly response.

The most thing I'm crazy about him is his generosity. And of course his kindness.

"Harta kita terbahagi kepada tiga. Makan kita, pakai kita iaitu keperluan kita & yang terakhir is kebajikkan. Kalau bukan kita habiskan untuk tiga perkara ini, rugilah kita."

He always wanted to be the upper hand, when he received more, he will certainly give more. His acts remind me of how generous Rasulullah and his companions. He might be the most generous man on earth I've found in front of my eyes.

I always be motivated by his supports, advices and financial of course, hehe.

"Ayah suka Eyush dan Eshah buat non-profitable activities macam pergi usrah, buat kerja-kerja kebajikkan sebab Ayah pun buat benda yang sama cuma cara kita berbeza."

And sometimes when I was clinging at home for too long, he would ask "Hai, tak pergi usrah ke?", hihi.

For giving us freedom in doing something that can benefit others, he is very considerate even when I didn't really spent my time with the family.

Here's a story that made us close: At the end of last year, I had a 3-long-days argumentation with him. It was because of a very tiny little trouble I had. I assumed he didn't understand what I'd been through, what was my condition about.

How could he possibly, lowered down his ego as a man and of course as a dad when I was embrace to my egoism tightly, he came and hug me closely. I could see the tears in his eyes and he said;

"Manusia datang dan pergi dalam hidup kita. Kalau ada, ada la, kalau takde, takpe la. Nak buat macam mana kan? Eyush kena ingat yang dalam hidup Eyush, Eyush tak mampu mengubah dunia tapi Eyush mampu memberikan yang terbaik untuk adik-adik, sepupu-sepupu yang berharap pada Eyush. Ayah bukan ada selama-lamanya.

Buat masa sekarang, focus on your degree. Ace it. Kelak, Eyush boleh sumbang pada orang yang memerlukan. Kan Allah kata "Hablum Minallah, Hablum Minnannas."

There's lots more. Lots, lots more. At that time, I hugged him. As tight as I can. I shouldn't have done that to him, I begged for his forgiveness and he forgave me at ease. Because he always say;

"Ingatlah, apa-apa yang korang buat, kasih sayang Ayah mengatasi segalanya".

Tonight, I cried again in my after-Isya' du'a, pray hard to Allah to take care of him, because I miss him a lot, like a lottt!

Listening to him, now becoming my favorite hobby. Observing at how workaholic he is, is one of my enthusiasms. And be all ears to his words & advices to us and his friends is a knowledge of life.

One definite day, I want to follow what he did to his mom, his dad and his family. I want to be generous like him. I want to be like him. Exactly like him whether I knew it is possible but I'll try hard.

And one day, insyaAllah I want to be like what my sister said;

"I wish me and my husband could educate our children like what you've done to us, Ayah"

Though I repeatedly say "Terima kasih Ayah", it wouldn't be enough.

Nothing can pay his absolute efforts together with pure pain to make sure we have a better life. Thus, the very least that I can do now, then and forever insyaAllah is to keep praying for him, is to keep begging to Allah SWT to always forgive him and give him happiness and joys in dunya and akhirah. Ameen.

To make a big happy family like this, put smiles in our face, again "TERIMA KASIH, AYAH!"

Tengok tu sempat lagi on-call cakap dengan customers ;)

Ayah, you are the greatest gift from Allah SWT to us. I admire and love you Ayah. A lot! Eternally insyaAllah :)

Little one for small room :)

I'm living off-campus. Twenty Two Palm Ave, that's the name of this house. Situated in the middle of Massey Uni and town. Very reachable, very near to Moshims (Halal grocery shop) and Pak n Save. And the most, most important is the rent is veryyy cheap. 110$ p/w included internet and electricity bills! Woweeee! I've got a small room, however, I managed to love living in here. Well, since I'm really enjoying my tiny little room of this house; let me show you guys some pics about it :)

The best part in my room, Shin Chan, Conan are in that rack :D

Part where I put my eyes before sleep and all day.

Yeay! I've got a sink in it. Make me easier to take wudhu'!

2nd Best part, always sit here when I don't know what to do. New monitor, cordless keyboard and mouse.

The scenery from my room's view. Nice, ey?

I hope, I can get closer to my housemates. Some of them are working and I'm the youngest among them all. Really hope we can understand and be tolerate to each other. And like the supervisor says: treat everyone like your family. Yes! I'm trying to be friendly and improve my English at the same time! :)

New life has come :)

Fuhh. It has been a long week since I came back from Malaysia.

From Malaysia to Auckland wasn't very nice. Ain and Hafezz were complaining about the foods in the flight. They think the foods when we went back to Malaysia were much better. Hmm.. I have a long story to be told about the journey back to Palmy but really, here's not the place. Maybe I'm not in a mood to post a long entry.

Here in a new house with 6 other new housemates and friends. Taiwanese, Chinese (from China), Malawian, Korean and Hafza, Pakistanian and also my previous housemate, which make me feel much more better. I was a bit bored before since they were very new to me and I didn't have anyone to talk to. Many challenges living here since they have different religion, customs and culture but insyaALlah like what my dad said to me last night, I have to be confident that Allah will always help me and be with me. And, to mix around is one of the reasons why Mara spends a lot sending me here, right? So, I took the challenge and pray that Allah guides me to be on a right path.

Since my rent is much cheaper, I hope I can continuously save money then I can travel to Melbourne and Fiji. Ameen :)

Busy, busy, and get busy!

It's 1.46 a.m already and I can't believe that I am sitting in front of my laptop typing this. Just came back from usrah program that was really fun! I usually sleep around 8 p.m due to the practical work that is surely very tiring.

Time running too fast till I left behind and couldn't catch it up. Lots of thing happened during my summer holidays. Half of it I spend for my work - wake up early, catch 2 trains and one bus ( if mom can't fetch me) and it costs me 6.40RM per day. Can you imagine how much it is! In my place in NZ, we just have to touch our student card and can get into buses for free! Haish.. So, I have to make a baby face, asked touch 'n go top up from dad. Fortunately, I got a food swipe card contained 100RM per month which I don't have to pay for my breakfast and lunch except on Friday.

Here comes a story of a very 'hardworking' and 'mature' worker.. In office, after finished my data entry work (or.. if I feel very sleepy), I'll sleep under the table covering my little body with kain batik, lucky me my table is at the corner so (I think) my boss can't see what I am doing. Wahaha.

Start working in office for the first time is really a challenge for me but I know one day I have to face all these again and again. So, it's good for me to practice it from now, ey? Like what people always say : Practice makes perfect. (And somehow, the naughty youngster will reply: Nobody's perfect, then why we have to practice? Question mark! ;)

To relieve my tense and stress, I have planned my weekends with wonderful activities (and cheap! Correct your niat Fairuz! Okay.. okay.. :)

23-24: Jalinan Ukhwah Musim Panas.

30-31: FlyHigh OZ/NZ.

Hopefully, I can update stories with my beloved sahabat in these programs, insyaAllah!

Sad to say, I'm still searching for some dates to sleep at Umi's, meet my friends in UITM Shah Alam and visit my teachers in SAB. Looked like I don't have a suitable ones before I'm going back on 10th Feb!

But, but, but (Na'udhubillah.. May Allah make this easier for me) if I can't meet you guys, InsyaAllah, quoting someone : Jauh di mata, dekat di hati kan? :)

By the way, while waiting for the trains and standing in it before I reach my destination, I try to be a bookworm like I used to be. Proud to say (haha), I'm currently reading: Life is an open secret you, me and we by Sis Zabrina. Really enjoy it. Must read ey! 24.50RM only :D

Ramadhan, basikal 2nd hand dan raya.

Hari kelima Ramadhan aku sambut dengan membeli sebuah basikal berkuasa rendah 10 gear nzd50 di Green Bike kat dalam uni. Bersama-sama Kak Husna yang membakar-bakar semangatnya walaupun mula-mula aku kata "saya teman akak je tau" tapi serius itu cinta pandang pertama. Aku ambik, test jalan-jalan kejap dan bayar. Beli kunci terus takut hilang kena curi. Lepas tu tumpang Kak Zu pergi town beli helmet. Petang tu jugak terus memecut ke surau dan Kairanga, even dekat pun nak jugak naik basikal. Demi Allah, seronok jiddan! Sekarang, senang je nak kemana-mana, ada basikal. Haritu kena marah dengan cleaner sebab pergi College St naik basikal, hari pulak windy. Sampai-sampai je rumah Kak Nina kat College St. habis berpeluh sebab penat melawan rintangan angin yang sangat padu. Maklumlah, NZ kan..


Disebabkan aku tak join official salam perantauan dari kawan-kawan kat sini, jadi:

Selamat menyambut hari kemenangan untuk umat Islam semua. Kepada mak, ayah, umi, mama, kakak-kakak dan adek-adek, kena happy je tau and senyumm selalu okay :)
Cikgu-cikgu dan kawan-kawan yang berada di serata dunia, Selamat Hari Raya. May Allah bless us all, ameen :)

Lagi satu, selamat berspring yang di OZ & NZ! Yang kat Welly apa kata korang turun Palmy untuk Sakura Festival? ;)

Ayah kata..

Ayah selalu kata: Money is just a piece of paper.

Ayah selalu didik; kita kena jadi tangan yang di atas, bukan tangan yang di bawah. Jadi, ayah bagi duit banyak-banyak pada kami supaya kami belajar bagi kepada tok, adek-adek sepupu, makcik-makcik dan pakcik-pakcik saudara.

Ayah jugak menderma di depan kami supaya kami belajar dari dia.

Walapun ayah mungkin tidak tahu ini:

1.) Allah berkata dalam Al-Baqarah ayat 215 : Mereka bertanya kepadamu (wahai Muhammad): apakah yang akan mereka belanjakan (dan kepada siapakah)? Katakanlah: "Apa jua harta benda (yang halal) yang kamu belanjakan maka berikanlah kepada: Kedua ibu bapa, dan kaum kerabat, dan anak-anak yatim, dan orang-orang miskin, dan orang-orang yang terlantar dalam perjalanan. Dan (ingatlah), apa jua yang kamu buat dari jenis-jenis kebaikan, maka sesungguhnya Allah sentiasa mengetahuiNya (dan akan membalas dengan sebaik-baiknya).

2.) Dan ini; Nabi bersabda diriwayatkan oleh Imam Muslim : Sebaik-baik sedekah adalah apa yang lebih dari keperluan. Tangan di atas (pemberi) itu lebih baik dari tangan dibawah (penerima). Mulailah dengan orang yang menjadi tanggunganmu.

Dan Ayah kata lagi: Hidup kita bukan hanya untuk kita, hidup kita untuk orang lain juga.

Walapun kena pow banyak kali, ayah tetap tak berkesah kerana ayah kata lagi: Duit ayah kalau tak bagi kat anak-anak, nak bagi kat siapa lagi..

Susahnya nak punya hati seperti ayah.. Kan anak-anak?

Bersatulah.

Mama, Mak, Eyush, Umi and Akak.
Buckingham Palace.

Eyush, Mak & Arah.
Central Park Hotel.

Tumi and I.
Thames River, Eye of London.

Permintaan hati.

Hai Si Winter Break, cepatlah kemari. Aku sudah tak sabar melarikan diri kerana kawan sendiri mengkhianati diri.

Hai Winter Break, cepatlah kesini supaya hati ini dapat dipulihkan kerana ia mula berdarah kembali.

Hai Winter Break, cepatlah kepadaku, agar hati-hati kami dapat bersatu seperti dulu.

Sungguh, aku tak sabar lagi. Untuk pergi jauh dari kamu.

P/s: Setuju enggak dengan quote dibawah?

“A woman either loves or hates; she knows no medium.”

Aku kalah.

Aku kalah lawan perasaan lagi. Mereka terlalu dekat pada hati aku, terlalu. Aku ingat aku kuat. Aku ingat rindu itu boleh dikawal. Aku ingat rindu itu datang sekali-sekala. Tapi bila hati terlalu dekat pada wajah-wajah mereka, rindu itu seperti tidak akan pernah padam. Serius, aku rindu. Pagi tadi ayah hantar gambar-gambar ayah di Edinburgh kat aku dah aku kalah lagi. Aku benci bila kalah pada perasaan yang lemah. Aku mahu kuat. Bila rindu pada mereka, aku sedar yang sayang aku pada mereka, bukan sekadar on the surface tapi di bawah dasar yang betul-betul dasar, itu yang positif. Aku tak mahu balik summer. Rindu, jangan lah sampai kau membawa aku pulang summer nanti please! Aku rindu sangat-sangat tapi aku tak down. Aku harus kuat demi Allah, Islam, ayah dan mak.

"Oh Tuhanku, kau pimpinlah diri ini yang mendamba cintaMu, aku lemah, aku jahil
tanpa pimpinan dariMu." Tuhanku- Raihan.

Aku rindu segalanya tentang mereka berdua. Fairuz, kuat, kuat.

Ayah kat Edin. Comel sangat ayah!

Ayah, mak, miss you two soooooooo much! Fillah, insyaAllah :)

Randomness on today.

Harini bangun awal pagi dengan dikejutkan oleh-Nya. Alhamdulillah. Plan untuk ke pasar mesti dilaksanakan meskipun hujan turun tak henti-henti. Pasar kat sini amatlah membosankan yet Alhamdulillah sebab masih boleh berjumpa dengan si Kailan tercinta. Buah plam kegemaran Ibu pon ada kat sini. Beli banyak gila tapi sangatlah murah. 1NZD boleh dapat 6-7biji. Ni yang teringat kat Mak ni. Miss U.. Sob sob:(

Tak banyak pon barang-barang basah kat sini.

Lepas tu ke Pak' n Save pula. Memborong itu-ini. Murah jugak barang-barang harini. Tapi tak dapat jugak beli daging sebab mahal lah sangat-sangat. Beef slices sekotak hampir 8NZD. Kata je NZ banyak lembu tapi mahaii nya lah. Bersyukur juga sebab dapat beli dua ekor ikan besar. Lepas tu ke kedai Asean beli ikan masin dan sangat sedih tengok keadaan Raja Buah-buahan Tempatan itu. Terkurung dalam freezer.

20dollar lebih tu. Mahaii!

Harini tolong si Ain buat creme puff. Teringat sangat-sangat kat Ayu dan Ija yang hantu creme puff waktu kat KMS dulu. Miss u friends :(

Sedap. Pandaii Ain :P

Ke MUMSA (Massey Uni Malaysia Students Association) pot luck. Makan-makan. Main-main dengan anak-anak postgrad then pulang dengan perut yang kekeyangan. Alhamdulillah.. :D

Muka-muka perantau.

Ni nama Ain gak. Baru 6 bulan tapi dah tough ;P

Sangat manis kan?

Hari tu kakak aku yang kat Scotland orderkan kek SR kat aku. Order online. Look at the words on it.

Ye. Sangat sweet yet sangat sedih. Dia akan balik bulan 6 nnt. Dan masa tu insyaAllah aku tiada.

Moga perpisahan di atas jalan Allah ini adalah perpisahan yang manis bangat:D

Arah, I appreciated this more than you expected.

Gonna miss you too, badly :(

and

THANKSSSSS A LOTTTT!

Ada tiada kerja.

Semalam aku beli Berita Harian gara-gara semangat tengok gambar dan berita di muka hadapan akhbar itu. Padan muka kau Peres. Terkejut kena marah dengan Erdogan di hadapan khalayak ramai. Tapi lagi-lagi padan muka aku bila terkejut beruk tengok tajuk ini '1Juta bakal hilang pekerjaan.' Lagi, yang aku tak lah terkejut sangat - '50ribu terlibat Skim Cepat Kaya'. Pulak, 6000 kedai dan 2000 orang baru saja terkesan akibat penutupan Syarikat Intel di Pulau Pinang, Malaysia termasuk Filipina Rabu lalu.

Malaysia memang amat-amat merasai kegawatan ekonomi. Semalam kakak aku yang bekerja dengan Petronas cerita yang kawan-kawan dia yang baru lepas grad kat UTP tak dilayan oleh pihak Petronas sendiri. Ditinggalkan terkapai-kapai. Call tak diangkat, yang dah di interview tidak dapat apa-apa respon lagi. Freeze. Itu mungkin tindakan yang mereka ambil gara-gara recession kali ini.

Chat dengan kakak aku semalam yang berada nun di Scotland. InsyaAllah akan grad Jun nnt. Aku cakap kat sini (Malaysia) dah susah nak cari kerja, kenapa tak kerja kat sana je? Dia kata susah. Persaingan sangat-sangat tinggi. Tambah-tambah kita foreigners. Cita-cita aku kononnya nak bekerja di perantauan nampaknya semakin tipis:(

Jumpa pulak Cikgu Azmi hari tu.

"Cikgu, saya ambil course Nanotechnology tau."

"Oh ye? Tapi ada ke kerja? Tak silap saya, kat Malaysia ni takde lagi pekerjaan nanotechnologist."

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa:((

Tapi tapi, kita jangan lupa ini:

"Dan tidak ada suatu binatang melata pun di bumi melainkan Allah yang memberi rezekinya dan Dia mengetahui tempat berdiam binatang itu dan tempat penyimpanannya. Semuanya tertulis dalam kitab yang nyata." ( Hud : 6 )

Rajin-rajinlah kita berdoa. Usaha itu mesti diiringi/disertakan dengan doa. Sesungguhnya Allah itu kan Maha Pemberi Rezeki, Maha Kaya. Dan Maha Sweet sangat di mana Dia hanya akan dan telah mesti memberi yang terbaik pada hamba-hambaNya. Kannn?

"Apa saja di antara rahmat Allah yang dianugerahkan kepada manusia, maka tidak ada yang dapat menahannya; dan apa saja yang ditahan-Nya maka tidak ada yang sanggup untuk melepaskannya setelah itu. Dan Dialah yang Maha Perkasa, Maha Bijaksana." (Fatir : 2)

Mahu lebih? Sini ya.

Most wanted.

Aku rasa kagum sangat-sangat dengan orang yang buat website ni. Walaupun mungkin unaffected sangatlah untuk dunia tapi itu lah yang kita patut buat. Jihad patut diteruskan. Jangan hanya mengikut musim. Bila Palestin kena bedal, baru kita nak bersuara, baru kita terhegeh-hegeh nak boikot. This must be a continuous effort.

Dan, aku sangat berbangga dengan Malaysia yang mana bila pemimpin negara-negara Arab baru nak bersidang, kita dah beberapa langkah ke hadapan. Sekarang pun masih banyak ceramah-ceramah kat media massa yang nak bagi kesedaran kat kita semua, yang nak ajak kita beristiqamah untuk boikot produk-produk Israel Laknatullah dan sekutunya itu. Sebab, ada lagi yang tak sedar-sedar. Beberapa hari kebelakangan ni, masa jalan-jalan kat KL Central, aku intai-intai gak McD, sedih gila bila ada je Muslims yang makan kat situ. Ish. Kalau mengidam pun, trylah untuk mengidam benda lain. Boleh je kan?

Sekarang kalau korang singgah LRT Masjid Jamek, KLCC dan KL Central, ada orang yang akan pegang tabung derma untuk bantu Muslims di seluruh dunia (Sudan, Gaza, Iraq, etc, etc). Organisasi tu nama Islamic Relief. Jadi, sama-samalah kita menderma serba sedikit. Percaya kan pepatah: Sedikit-sedikit, lama-lama jadi bukit. Celcom Blue jugak ada bagi aku 1 hadis (dapat setiap hari, Alhamdulillah:) yang berbunyi:

"Berinfaqlah iaitu berbelanjalah atau bersedekahlah dan jangan mengukit-ungkitnya kerana Allah akan menghitung nikmatnya ke atas kamu." - Muslim.

By the way, comel je Rosmah (TPM's wife) ajak kita sama-sama menderma kat tv. Kan bagus macam tu Datin Sri. I'm proud of you:D

Teruskan jihad ya kawan-kawan. Jangan ada genjatan boikot pulak;P

Bersedih. Layakkah?

Belum rasa layak:

Bila tarikh aku nak blah pon aku tak tau lagi. Waaaa.. Sangat-sangat confiusing okay akak2
Mara!! Kenapakah budak-budak OZ and TESL je yang dah ada expected date?? Dianak-tirikan itu sangat sakit. Oh!

Tapi, aku rasa sangat layak kerana ini:

1. Mak mula ikut segala keinginan aku walaupun tiba-tiba aku ajak makan roti pisang kat
maple maghrib2. Dan pasembor? Mak kata, "tunggu Aishah balik k..".

2. Malam tadi mak cakap pada adek aku, "Mulai malam ni, kita tidur ngan Kak Yush je okay..". Walaupun aku tak tau benda tu akan jadi kenyataan ke tak (yelah, takkan nak tidur dengan aku sepanjang kurang dari sebulan ni kan?) tapi ungkapan itu dah buat aku mula rasa nak sedihhhh:(

3. Aku akan tinggalkan usrah kanak-kanak IIC yang cool. Naqibah-naqibah yang sangat penyabar dan memahami.

4.Aku dapat lagu ini dari dia:

It's Not Goodbye
Laura Pausini

And what if I never kiss your lips again
Or feel the touch of your sweet embrace
How would I ever go on
Without you there's no place to belong
Well, someday love is gonna lead you back to me
But till it does I'll have an empty heart
So I'll just have to believe
Somewhere out there you're thinking of me
Till the day I let you go
Till we say our next hello
It's not good-bye
Till I see you again
I'll be right here remembering when
And if time is on our side
There'll be no tears to cry
On down the road
There is one thing I can't deny
It's not good-bye
You'd think I'd be strong enough to make it through
And rise above when the rain falls down
But it's so hard to be strong
When you've been missing somebody so long
It's just a matter of time I'm sure
But time takes time and I can't hold on
So won't you try as hard as you can
To put my broken heart together again.

P/S: Sila abaikan ayat yang pertama-tama itu okay. Hayati lagu tu dan sila bersedih. Dan jangan tanya lagi kenapa status YM aku ' It's not goodbye' ye Sol;)

Jadi, layakkah aku untuk bersedih? Kamu bagaimana?

Tapi ingatlah:

" La Tahzan, Innallaha Ma'ana"
:)

Claiming Letter for my Visa.

Currently, I don't have anything to do and have plenty of free time. Just received 18 episodes of Gossip Girl Season 1 from Kak Ti, but don't have any mood to watch and finished them up quickly.

So, what should I do? Sitting in front of laptop day after day counting the special date to be arrived or should I do something else? Something for my departure to the Kiwi Country. Thinking. Thinking. The contract isn't deliver to me yet, the budget for my shopping list is not approved yet, dreamy laptop is to be bought in January so, I don't think I couldn't arrange anything. Err. Pop-up: Visa claiming letter!! Yes!

Special thanks to my IB friends. Mimi and 'Iffah for always guiding me. You guys helped me a lot. And, I realized that we need each other since the day we met. This is really what I feel, Ukhwah Fillah, Alhamdulillah:)

By the way, I just received an email from Selset. Guess what?? My Financial Statement is ready! Love you, Mara!

Hence, I am excitedly to inform, my visa application is now at Singapore to be proceeded for the next stage. Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah! Hope everything will be alright. Keep praying that INZ Singapore won't be too strict and approve our visa easily, insyaAllah:)

Last but not least, if you guys are damn boring now , sitting and don't have any idea what you want to do, let us work out together on the claiming letter. It's a good idea, right? Want an example, do contact me.

Credit to Mimi for her letter:)

1st death of nenek

"Saat dunia berhenti berputar,
Saat manusia tak sanggup lagi berharap,
Ketika mentari tak sanggup lagi berjanji,
Menyinari dunia yang tlah kau singgahi"

the tones from my phone shouted. it was mama..

"hello,eyush, bagitau mak yang nenek dah tak ada.k"

it was a long hesitation before i could reply her.
and it was another loong hesitation when mak received the news.

---------------flash back---------------------

"eyush gi nz nnt jgn lupa nenek eh"
"insyaAllah nek, takkan lupa kot.."

it was day after we -eyush, adek, dibah and acap played bowling.



arwah held a kenduri doa selamat after her recovery from breaking bones problem. a day which we enjoy very much with her smiles and joyful from her face. and it was just a day after yesterday.

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today is her turn. when my turn come, will i be ready enough?